I have been wanting to write this for a while but I wasn’t sure what to put in the post. So I’ll let my fingers do the talking and see what comes out.
I have had a much better year this year than the last few years. The years 2018 and 2019 were very dark years. So bad in fact that in some parts of those years I thought the kids might be better off if I went to sleep and never woke up or maybe they would be better off with their daddy. Yeah not fun times. This year I even had a notice of foreclosure sent to me from my bank on my home mortgage. It looked really bleak. I called my brother and in a twist of fate he was able to help and I won’t lose the house. I can’t fully describe how much emotional weight that took off of my shoulders. I am so relieved now that my house isn’t in danger of being in foreclosure and I don’t have to worry about the house being taken from me and the kids.
I started to stream on Twitch and I am loving it. I already got affiliate which means I can earn money and I am so stoked for that. It’s something I have been wanting to do for a couple of years and I finally took the plunge and I am so glad I did make that leap. I hope I can continue to grow with this along with my blog site Anxious Rainbows. My next goal is to do something with all the picture I have been taking around the area and maybe set up a merch store. We will see what happens 
That isn’t to say that it’s been all great, I am dealing with some insecurities I haven’t had to deal with for a while because I am talking with people again. I hope I can work through them and anything else that pops up while I am working on my creative goals. I know the Lord with be with me like he has through my life, I am just not sure how I can best to move ahead from this point right now. That’s all