So I think I may have made a discovery today. I'm not sureDid you ever paint with watercolor? Maybe as a kid in school? Do you remember how when you mixed the paint with water to get it on the page? I remember how if you mixed too much water with the paint you end up with really faint color on the page because the paint would soak into the paper and you usually ended up with a wet paper with...

I did it again! I ended up not posting again. Argh, I don't know how to keep on a schedule yet it seems. I am trying, I just need to shake things up to see if I can find better methods.School has been going well even though I feel a slight panic that it will all fall apart. Got to love anxiety right? My kids and I are doing ok and they finish school in about a week. They are so happy to be out...

I had an upsetting thing happen this afternoon. Sorry if I ramble. /RANT I went to go pick up my kids from school like I do every school day. Our school district has a police force and they are the ones that direct traffic during the drop off and pick up times. I was beginning to turn a right onto the road when I saw a car about to do a U turn on the same street. When I saw the car moving is...

I had a dream about Mama last night. I remember going down the stairs to my kitchen and she suddenly appeared standing next to the kitchen counter area as I walked past that spot. I asked a question and she answered, and then I looked back behind myself and I was staring into her eyes and her into my eyes. That the image that was most vivid when I woke up, looking into her eyes and her looking...

I have had such a horrible few weeks this last month. I am dealing with stuff with my son and, well, I am so angry with myself. My son is having issues at school and it has been exhausting to deal with and try to figure out ways to take care of the situation and my son. I do it because it's important and I'll never consider giving up, that doesn't mean I can't say it's exhausting right? I am...

I didn't forget about last Friday's post, I have just been debating if I wanted to write the post or leave it alone. I decided to go ahead and try to write the post and see what happens. Family. One word with so many meanings, so many thoughts that comes to mind. I have a complicated relationship with my family. The family I grew up with I barely know anymore. I left home to join the US Army and...

So these past two Fridays have either been really hectic or Fridays are not the best days to post. I will have to rethink which day is a good weekly blog day. Well last Friday was eventful to say the least. I had to go pick up my son from school. He was having some issues at school and I had to address it and figure out what to do for him in the future. I am not sure exactly what I can do right...

So I was suppose to post every Friday and oops. I was going to get on and post before I got other stuff done and before I know it it is technically Saturday morning. D: Well better late than never I guess. This week has been eventful. I got ghosted on Discord, yay! So I had a situation on Sunday and that ended up seeing someone couldn't get my messages. When I went to see if they were on my...

I think I will make Friday my major blog day. This way I hope I can be more consistent with my writing and keep at it when I have a set schedule. This week was not a good week. Emotionally it was very draining and upsetting, to say the least. Sometimes I swear that even though I am almost 50 I still have the emotional maturity of a 16 teenage girl. I had someone mention they had feelings for me,...

I just found out something I am not too happy with.I have been taking CBD oil for about 2 years now to help with my anxiety mostly but also for the antiinflammation benefits as well. I just read up that I can't take it for about 5 days before a surgical procedure I need to do the beginning of March. That really worries me. I will be given a sedative that is known to have effects with the CBD oil...