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I am so tired of feeling afraid.I have begun to realize just how much a part of my life fear has been through the years. In a way I have had so much fear for so long that is has become like a comfort in a way. Something that is known, predictable, and so I know what to expect with its confines. I didn't realize just how much it has become a part of my life until these last two years or so when I...

There is a movie that starred Meg Ryan called "When a Man Loves a Woman" in the movie Meg's character was a barely functioning alcoholic. She hit rock bottom and finally decided to get sober. At this point in the film she was dealing with an argument between her two girls and the husband comes in to take over telling her something like "don't you think you have enough to handle with that cup of...

I have been thinking about this a lot lately. Have any of you wanted something so bad but was so scared to fail that you almost gave up before you started? Or how about you wanted to achieve something but was unsure you could put in the hard work so thought maybe you should not even bother. Anxiety telling you that you will never make it and depression causing you to feel numb to anything and...

Gaming is a big part of my life. I have been playing some type of computer game since I was 11 years old. I started on the PC when my mother was able to get one for our house, to arcades, to consoles, back to PC all in a matter of about 35 years. I enjoy playing as well as the strategies that come with playing to win. I also enjoy meeting people from all over the world during game play. Gaming...

This post may be a bit long and rambling as I put down some musings. I apologize in advance. So I watched a movie on Disney+ tonight called Soul and wow it had quite the impact. The story is a guy named Joe gets what he always dreamed of just before he dies and ends up in the Great Before. There he meets a soul called Soul 22 who has never lived and has not interest in going to Earth to have a...

So I am looking for a job now. I haven't been working on my writing lately, and I am so worried about finances that I barely focus on anything right now. I feel like a failure with not keeping up with my blog like I was intending earlier this year. I have projects that I never sit down to write out. Bleh my depression has gotten so bad lately. I am not in full out crisis which is a blessing. Yet...

A poem I came up with today. I haven't written any poems lately. I like this one. I seem to think of the imagery of rain a lot lately, I wonder why. Another blow has come With pain too great for me to be able to stand As tears fall like rain To water seeds of hope and dreams While they wait for the sun to come out again.

Sorry in advance for the long post. This is a short story I worked on about two years ago and I wanted to let everyone know some of what I am working on currently. Enjoy! Falling Angels The breeze is cool on her face, funny how she didn’t notice that until now. Katie looks over the bridge’s edge to the dark expanse of the water below. Standing on the railing for the walkway on the bridge,...

I had an upsetting event today and it reminded me why it is so important to keep up with the cognitive processing therapy. I instantly went to the usual thoughts of everything I do ends up failing and nothing will get better etc. I recolonized what was happening and was able to turn it around quickly. I gave myself time to calm down then went back to what I was doing. I realized just how much of...

So I was out today in this heat to get some food for dinner and I came across a homeless man I have seen a lot the last few years. We talked about the heatwave that is in my area this week and up to next Tuesday. We are taking up to 108 or maybe even 110 degrees F, that is not pleasant to deal with. We talked about another homeless man who was sent to the hospital after he was coughing really...